My "boss":)

Let me start by saying I love being a mom! I do...I really love it. I feel very blessed to be able to stay home with Madi and I love the time we get to spend together. I know for the rest of my life I will always treasure these times, because I will never get them back. With that being said, let me say that it is not easy. I consider staying at home with Madi my job and like any job it has it's ups and downs. The only difference is that in this job I have a 10 month old boss that is sometimes very demanding and very messy:) With other regular jobs your boss gives you feedback, positive or negative. A 10 month old can't say "Your doing a great job! You are going over and above your job requirements and we really appreciate the time your putting in." Sometimes not hearing that is difficult. I need to know that I am doing a good job from the person I am doing the job for, but she can't tell me that. The only way I know that I am doing what she needs for her is when she giggles at me when were playing peek-a-boo or when she smiles at me while I'm changing her diaper. Those are little subtle things but they are encouragement nonetheless. I hear from Matt all the time that I am a great mom and he can't imagine doing what I do. Which is wonderful and I really appreciate. I guess I will just have to wait a couple years when she can look at me and say "Thank you mommy." Can't wait!!!!

my new favorite face!!!

We had asparagus last night...Madi was not a fan!!! I love this picture! She is becoming so much more expressive!

On vacation...no pics!

I am on my last day of vacation with Madi and my mom in Palm Springs. We orginally were going to go on this awesome trip to Washington D.C. with 5 seniors from Sunnyslope High School. It would have been the coolest trip, but we weren't able to get the tickets changed over to our name (two kids droped out, that's why were able to go). I was super disapointed!! I love D.C. and would have loved to share that expereince with Madi and my mom. Oh well, God had another plan...my mom said "hey, we were already planning on going on vacation, let's go somewhere anyway!" So she rented a house in Palm Springs, CA for cheap and we have been here since Saturday. This trip is super relaxing filled with swimming, shopping and eating! Madison is LOVING her swim time and I have been loving my relaxing time! I realized that I really don't relax very much at home. I always feel that there is something else to be done. I am a lot like my dad that way. Even as a kid I can remember going on vacation with the family and watching my dad, he never fully relaxed. My mom has no problem getting into relax mode. But my dad never could switch into that mode as quickly. I really want to be able to switch into the "vacation, relax mode" a lot faster. On another note...I am ashamed to admit that I love US Weekly, PEOPLE magazine and all other trashy celeb gossip magazines!! I know that they are horrible, but I can't help it! Whenever I see one, especially when I'm on vacation I desperately want to buy it and when I do I feel a little guilty that I bought one! It's a catch-22. I really love them though:)